i can't help but feel so unsure of myself. i need someone to learn from, suddenly SL and expected to make sop 1s sing well, is really a very big thing.

i know i need to put in a lot of effort, i want to put in the effort.

i mean, i know that some of them are singing wrongly and i need to tell them how to do it correctly, but the problem is, i keep asking myself. "am i correct in the first place ?"

i didn't think that it was going to be an easy job. but i'm not going to give up and go, "no i can't do it"

i have to stop thinking "if i wasn't.... then i wouldn't..." it's not going to get anywhere. i'm in sop one now, i belong to sop one, and i won't push my responsibility away as an sl, and it's not just a responsibility, it's something that i want to do and will do.

ms lim saying that the section is bad, just leads me try and work harder. no, i won't be demoralised. if she didn't want us to improve, she wouldn't be saying we sing like sai, she wouldn't even care about us at all, she wouldn't bother to scold us.

i can't doubt myself. SELF CONFIDENCE MAN.

sop ones, we really need to work hard... and i'll try my best okay, even though i'll probably screw up many times. we must prove to ms lim that we can do it and we are not mickey/minnie mice.

yeah, we can do it. :]

self confidence, zi xin xing.

okay, the first few days of school i was damn tired can ! had an afternoon nap just now. i guess i really need to start sleeping and waking up early ! zao shui zao qi man. (:

new english teacher called ms wendy ng. i got no comments about her. =x [just that ms goh is a million times better]

and i think we will be changing maths teacher, mr phee became P.E secretary. then our P.E teacher chnge to him. volleyball for P.E today, made my arm hurt, bzzz. but i think it would be better than what we would be doing for the second half of the term, GYMNASTICS !

maths test on friday, i haven started on it yet, and i realised that victoria alr started studying for the chem test that's NEXT WEEK. my gosh, i'm like so slack.

tuanyao jie came back from aus !! whoo man. she bought this pack of like JUMBO CARDS. so big ! can't even shuffle properly.

oh, yesterday sarah (or was it rachel?) brought this spider to cool, it looks kinda real ! xP

it's kinda rubbery and when you shake it all the legs will jingle. hahahah.

last day of hols !

hahah, i seem to have a fetish for dull coloured skins. pooh, maybe that's because i'm a dull person. BUT NEVERMIND.

school is starting like TOMORROW ! oh my.. i'm kind of looking forward to seeing everyone again though, i think i've had enough of hols. this hols has been really fun. [especially the red rain concert, and sentosa with yiling]

j8 today to get yiling's bag. she brought like what, $2 ?! and i had to pay for her coke and her bread from breadtalk. because she didn't even eat anything.

work work work, then PARK with yiling ! oh man, two babies down there so cute. jiaxuan and qi en. they both from china de, cousins. pics pics pics !

jia xuan ` qi en

shannen ` qi en ` joey

hehe, all the little kids playing in the sand ! don't you think we're so cute. ^.^bzz, we punched her and she cried.

yesterday was spent at the library studying with yiling. woah, i spent 2 and a half hours doing one compo. great or what. 0.o

yesterday night had dinner at aldine jie's hse.

hahahah, look at her funny expression. i forgot what was on the tv.

After that we sent aldine jie off to the airport. yepp, fidia jie drove me and justin kor to airport. aldine jie, still got quite a few boxes haven moved yet.

she went in early because it was like 12am alr, then she wanted us to go home and rest early. i stayed over at fidia jie's hse. and we slept at like 4 am ?! she was watching some korean drama while i was reading chicken soup, hahah.

woke up quite late today, and fidia jie sent me home before she went for work.

some outdated pics...

i'm second from bottom right.

shit. how pathetic man. I NEED TO GROW. ):

okay joey is so very tired. so this post will be mostly pics.

cabbed to vivo after choir, almost lost the mat but found it at bus stop, had to ask taxi driver to turn back =x $12.60
took Sentosa Express to beach island. thank you angeline for the mat. (: what we did out of boredom. yay !=D amphitheatre, forgot we left our stuff in toilet, went back before show ended. went back to vivo, lost my card so had to buy another one. ): us us us !bzz, let's all go bang walls. x) END.

Don't undermine your worth by comparing yourself with others:

It is because we are different that each of us is special.

Don't sent your goals by what other people deem important:

Only you know what is best for you.

Don't take for granted the things closest to your heart:

Cling to that as you would your life, for without them life is meaningless.

Don't let your life slip through your fingers by living in the past or the future:

By living your life one day at a time, you live all the days of your life.

Don't give up when you still have something to give:

Nothing is really over until the moment you stop trying.

Don't be afraid to admit that you are less than perfect:

It is the fragile thread that binds us to each other.

Don't be afraid to encounter risks:

It is by taking chances that we learn how to be brave.

Don't shut love out of your life by saying it's impossible to find:

The quickest way to receive love is to give love.

The fastest way to lose love is to hold on too tightly,

And the best way to keep love is to give it wings.

Don't dismiss your dreams

To be without dreams is to be without hope

To be without hope is to be without purpose

Don't run through life so fast that you forget where you've been,

But also know where you're going.

Life is not a race,

but a journey to be savoured every step of the way.

sentosaaa `

hahah, came home and saw aunty coming to open the gate for me, grandma waving from her rm upstairs, and sister waving from mum's room at the top. i'm so welcomed home man !! (:

okay yiling barged into my hse at 10 am and dragged me out. took 855 to VIVO. bzz ate long johns silver and i was eating the fries when suddenly i tasted something damn disgusting. i took the half-chewed fry out of my mouth and told yiling, "this fry smells like pee". hahahaha. yiling was so disgusted she didn't eat the rest of her fries. [it really did smell like pee, like public toilets where the flush isn't working] >< okay after that looked for the sentosa station to take the sentosa express. we walked one whole round of the top level to realise that the station was right where we started from -.-" bzz saw a bird at a little corner under the shelter, it seemed to be injured, poor thing ! there were like feathers on the floor beside it.

finally found it, $3 per pass, and zoom, we got there. okay, joking.

anyway, went to Palawan beach first. yeah.. we swam, suntan, crapped about. for like 3 hours ?! there were these two brothers that were not far away from us. we kept watching them fooling around and laughing loudly. then they throw sand at us lo. hahahah. but it was friendly friendly kind of thing lah.

hahahah. we both look toot.

hahha that's me. yiling said my head looked like a rock.

so nice right.. he must have took damn long to make it !

went to rinse and get changed.. then watched the 5 30 show at the Palawan amphitheatre. woah so freaky lah, the animals will come so close to you de. me and yiling were super freaked out when one of the birds flew so near us its wings flapped yiling's fringe. hahahh. it was really nice though. (:

wanted to head back to vivo alr, then we saw those two guys we saw at the beach ! hahah. this time we actually talked and waved hello. then one of the guys actually said, want to come along ? but we ignored lah, hhahaha.

ate at kopitiam at vivo, and then shopped around. yiling wanted to get slippers, $50 but she no cash so she use her card. then keep saying not approved. we were both damn freaked out, cos the slippers all packed and put into box alr, if we were to walk out damn malu lah ! luckily tried like 3 times then approved. heng. (:

yearh.. went home after that. total hours spent outside -> 10 ! (:

bzzz. that's what happened to my skin after suntanning.

US US US US US US US US US US US US US US US.

cookies (:

bzzz. baking COOKIES. (: was fun.

even though piano teacher and yiling's mum said a bit too sweet.

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thankyou. (:

red rain rocks. (:

i'm still trying to decide if i know you.

farewell '07

woah woke up early in the morning to do presents at yck mrt ?! angeline, liying and i sat at the first door of the platform down there and all the trains that drived past, the driver all looked at us weirdly. HAHAH. okay anyway, went to amk hub, went to angeline's hse, then for choir. eh sorry comm we couldn't help out. ):

yeah, farewell was quite okay i guess. even though we screwed up the graduation song. ): hehe, the seniors still clapped though. yearh, mrs ong will not be in-charge of choir anymore ! we'll miss her, she's the nicest teacher in choir lo. ><

angeline and i were ban-ing tables and benches up the forum steps, woahh. super tiring can !!! we were in charge of food also, was quite fun, putting all the snacks on the plates and filling up the cups with soft drink.


HAHAH. me and angeline's masterpiece. hurrhurr. (:

sigh, farewell is over already. will miss the red badges a lot.
thankyou all, i love you. (:

what the fuck was i thinking

but i so badly want to believe you

once a bitch, always a bitch

okay, today was my official 'start work day' but i guess it only started at 10pm. HAHAH.

went to jean's hse early in the morning ! wadde i think i was the only one who bothered to wake up early and go there on time. -.-

after that had lunch at macs with jiayi, jingyi, angeline and debbie. fidia jie came and picked me to my hse to get changed, then brought me and my sis to ahma hse and then to airport. we were going to send aldine jie off, she going to perth.

had a long of things.. because she going to move there alr, with her husband. x)

me, chelsey, justin kor, natalie and nicole arrived there but aldine jie was not there yet. started pushing around with the trolleys and racing with each other. i was pushing natalie while justin kor was pushing chelsey and nicole. super funny lah ! everyone was staring at us running around and the kids were yelling so loudly due to their excitement.

natalie with her cute pose on the trolley !

anyway after that aldine jie came, sent her off then went to lunch at popeye's. crapped around then fidia jie sent us home. then i did my HOMEWORK !! [a little. =)]

oh and below are random photos taken during aldine jie's wedding dinn.

hahaha just a random pic but, LOOK ! it's me on the front cover. HAHAH. debbo did that. x)

ytd's wedding dinner was great ! ate until i couldn't eat anymore. hahah.

I force myself to think i don't care.

But it's when it's all dark and i'm lying in my bed when all the thoughts start flooding my mind.

I don't want to care.

If i am already frozen inside, no one can ever get in and hurt me.

3 day summary

On Friday i stayed over at Fidia jie's hse, because next day was Aldine jie's wedding ! we woke up really early and someone came to help Aldine jie put on make up and wear her gown.. yepp, then the groom came. Alot of people were there. In the afternoon went to the church for the worship service. The pastor was kinda funny. :D Had toasts and then had a buffet dinner, it was yum. (: The wedding dinner will be tmr, because they went to Malaysia today to hold a wedding dinner for the relatives there.
Aldine jie

Fidia jie got a car ! hahahaha. she insists that i must get a present for her "car's birthday".

Was damn tired when got home yesterday, slept for almost 17 hours. HAHAH. pig man. xD

Oh, yesterday was my sis's birthday and my mum got my sis a new bike, hahah. We went out for lunch at Swensen's today.

my MEGABURGER. hahha, it was nice but couldn't finish lah, so big. there were still leftovers even after my mum tried to finish. VOLCANO icecream. we were dumping all the cream into that little bowl of dry ice and bubbles kept appearing and burst into smoke, hahahha.

went to upper pierce after my mum got chelsey a stuffed toy [pooh] and a book from popular. my sis was super freaked out by the monkeys. O.o she screamed when i wound down the window and the monkey ran towards our car.

at the reservoir...

[something moved in the water, creating ripples]
chelsey: what's that? O.o

mum: oh YES ! it's a CROCODILE !!!

hahahaha. my mum is so cute. ((((((((((((((:

pics pics pics.

HAHAH that was the nicest picture i took. mum and chelsey [i kept telling her she looked aunty with the umbrella but she wouldn't listen =x]

yay. (:

on the way back...

chelsey [looking at sign] : stop.. stop...
mum: stop ? okay. [stops the car]

chelsey [still looking at sign]: stop feeding the monkeys

joey: HAHAHAHAAH.

:D