okay-day

e. lit test was okay i guess. got back my chinese, guess what. i passed. HAH. (:

science experiment was yuck. rotten meat. bblieuakkk. ><

after school was NAPFA. i was super nervous because i scared i would fail my sit ups. but DE and DEBBO calmed me down. hahaha. everything i did okay i guess, managing to scrape a C for sit ups. shuttle run was like so embarrassing.. everyone laugh at me. shan't elaborate. i redid like dont know how many times. even miss dawn lim was laughing la. hmph. =x

err ya.. then after that we went to talk. about stuff, to try to clear things up. but things weren't "cleared up", they just became clearer. dont know if that's good or not. i guess we've cried so many tears it's like considered a ... i dont know how to say it, it just it isn't such a big thing if someone cries anymore.

jiayi i really do understand how you feel. i know it was really and still is v important to you and it is really hard to let go, but... you are really important to all of us.. and she's not worthy of your tears, right? even though other factors may also be affecting your decision. i'll be on 24 hour standby too okay! sms me anytime, anywhere, i'll be there. (:

went to cycle with shannen after that for awhile. ended up staying at the park and doing nothing.. i dont know what i'm feeling now..

290407

joey win ; keith lose

had kfc for lunch today. (:

went crazy in the afternoon to find out that i had no silver marker for art.

went cycling to amk market with shannen, just to realise bk shops were closed.

there's nothing much to blog about today.

neither has there been for the past few days.

i like cycling. want to cycle to macritchie again after shannen's exams. (:

shannen give de. (:

haha! see my reflection? (:

ignoring the inner rumblings of my heartt.

strangers

SNCHOIR! way to go! (:

CHIJ st.nicholas girls', gold.... .... WITH HONOURS!!!!

omygosh. i'm so freakingly happy! all the training/drilling we've done for the past 8 months, all the effort that we have put in, it has finally paid off! we were so happy some of us even cried la! hahahaha. SO HAPPAYEEE. =DD

thanks to all those who gave words of encouragment and told me not to be so nervous before the SYF!

hah, especially DE! omygosh. i love de. de de de de. (: i was like freaking out during recess today and she kept telling me to relax. DEEEEE. whoo.

we were not allowed to bring our phones to the VCH, and when we came back, i got like 8 msgs and 4 missed calls, hahaha. thanks for asking dears! whoo. i love you all. (:

hehe.. choir leaders! haha. thank you for all the effort you've all put in! wahha. rock on! (:

now i can eat all the FRIED FOOD, CHOCOLATES, and SCREAM all i want!

oh and choir girls! rmb to sing the school song/national anthem SUPER LOUD tmr okay! HAHAHA. and CHEER super loud when the results are announced! WHOO. (:

given by the awesome seniors! xDD
heh this is given by WEISHAN! haha. thanks! (:

i pray for Shannen's mum, who's going for operation tmr. may she be healthy and strong. amen.

ehh nervouSING.

eh. saw this on clairvoyance's blog. grr. syf's tmr. destress ar.. destress. GwH!

You're supposed to get below 30 points in total to be considered an angel [guai kia] n if its over..you are a DEVIL [pai kia]

1)smoked b4 [ ]
2)drink alcohol b4 [x]
3)slept with someone of the opposite sex(not have sex)[x]
4)slept with someone of the same sex [x]
5)gotten into any fights [x]
6)kissed someone of the opposite sex b4 [x]
7)kissed someone of the same sex b4 [ x]
8)had someone in your room of the> opposite sex [x]
9)scold vulgarities [x]
10)bought porn [ ]

TOTAL: 8

11)take drugs b4 [ ]
12)hate going to the doctors [ ]
13)lied to your parents [x]
14)lied to a friend [x]
15)sneak out of the house [x]
16)done something illegal [x]
17)cut yourself [ ]
18)hurt someone [x]>
19)wished someone to die [x]>
20)seen someone die [ ]>

TOTAL: 6

21) missed curfew [x]
22) stayed out all night [x]
23) eaten a carton of ice cream by> yourself [ ]
24) been to a therapist [ ]
25) been to rehab [ ]
26) dyed/sprayed your hair [ ]
27) received a ticket [ ]
28) been in a wreck [ ]
29) been to a club [ ]
30) been to a bar [x ]

TOTAL: 3

31) been to a wild party [ ]
32) seen the Mardi Gras [ ]
33) had a fight [x]
34) had a spring break in Florida [ ]
35) sniffed anything [x]
36) wore black nail polish before [ x]
37) worn wrist bands [x ]
38) wore t-shirts with band names [ ]
39) wore black eyeliner [ ]
40) own a 50 cent CD [ ]

TOTAL: 4

41) hugged someone of the opposite sex[x]
42) hugged someone of the same sex [x]
43) gone out with someone of the opposite sex [x]
44) gone out with someone of the same sex [x]
45) stole something [x]
46) been too drunk to remember anything [ ]
47) blacked out [ ]
48) fainted [ ]
49) had a crush on your neighbour [x]
50) had someone else snuck into your room [ ]

TOTAL: 6

51) snuck into someone else's room [x]
52) had a crush on someone of the same sex [ ]
53) had gone and watched movies with friends [x]
54) dry humped someone [ ]
55) been called a slut [x ]
56) called someone a slut [x ]
57) installed speakers in your car [ ]
58) broke a mirror [ ]
59) showered at someone of the> opposites sex's house [x ]
60) brushed your teeth with someone> else's toothbrush [ ]

TOTAL: 5

61) consider Mac,Dr Dre, e40 or Mistah> Fab your favorite rapper [ ]
62) seen an R rated movie in theaters [ ]
63) going out with friends to the mall [x]
64) skipped school [x ]
65) had an eating disorder [ ]
66) had hurt yourself b4 [ ]
67) gone to court [ ]
68) walked out of a restaurant without paying [x]
69) caught something on fire [x]
70) lied about your age [x]

TOTAL: 4

71) owned an apartment [ ]
72) cheated on your boyfriend/girlfriend [ ]
73) cheated with someone [ ]
74) got in trouble with the police [ ]
75) talked to a stranger [x]
76) hugged a stranger [ ]
77) kissed a stranger [ ]
78) rode in the car with a stranger [ ]
79) been sexually harassed [ ]
80) been verbally harassed [x ]

TOTAL: 2

81) met face to face with someone you met online [x]
82) stayed online for 12 hoursbstraight [x ]
83) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours [ ]
84) watched TV for 12 hours straight [ ]
85) been to a fair [x]
86) been called a bad influence [x ]
87) been cursed [ ]
88) prank called someone [x]
89) laid in the bed with someone of the opposite sex [x ]
90) cheated on a minor test eg. spelling, class test etc.[x]

TOTAL: 7

91) cheated on homework [x]
92) held hands with someone of the> same sex [x]
93) wants to be dead [ ]
94) cuts yourself b4 [ ]
95) hate yourself [ ]
6) had a crush on someone 10 years> older than you [ ]
97) had a crush on someone[x]

total: 3

eh.. 48? o.0 not accurate de lo.. hahaha. i'm very guai de. (:

bringing joy and laughter to a gloomy day

even smoking at bus stops is prohibited?

walked to market with yiling just now.. then went park. we were both laughing at nothing most of the time... and it actually helped in forgetting the sadness that overwhelmed me last night. i can be myself with her.. laugh and whack each other and be stupid. we counted the number of steps we took from market to her house, and it was 2400. hahahha. we kept losing count and walking back, then count again. i was laughing until my stomach hurt like hell! I LOVE YILING. <3written by yiling, taken and edited by joey.

oh yeah! thks for listening to my excessive blabbing this afternoon. hahaha. read until eye pain. you rock xD

oh i love jiayi too, hahaha. my phone inbox and sent items flooded with your smses.

thanks to all those who tried to cheer me up, i'll be fine. hah, like i said in my previous post, dont be sad for me! (:

mixture.

you know sometimes when you're so sad and hurt, that every time you breathe out, your heart hurts. like literally.

i tried to be strong. i really didn't want to cry, i really didn't.

it's nobody's fault.

what i've been doing for 114 days, since school started. since choir started.. was just out of my plain stupidity and naive thinking. mine.

it's not her fault.

maybe changing school is a good idea after all?

i miss you de. i want to just say anything i want with you.

just like primary one.

primary four.

primary five.

primary six.

secondary one.

i'm tired. tired of trying to fit in.

tired of trying to tag along.

tired of being aware of each word i'm saying in case i say the wrong thing.

tired of thinking if i'm pissing anyone off when i'm with them.

words do hurt.

but she wasn't in any wrong.

in fact i agree with her.

just too stubborn to admit it myself.

admit the fact, that i'm not, just not a part.

no matter how much i pretend, or they pretend.

maybe changing school is a good idea after all.

maybe sec 2 is just a crappy year.

just maybe.

i know how it feels to be comforting someone who is really depressed.

it's really sad.

i dont want anyone to feel sad for me.

so, i'll be okay.

just maybe.

8 pieces of tissue already. okay. enough. smile. (:

friday?

this week has gone by in the whirl, most of the time i didn't even know what i was doing. well all i know is we've been working really hard for that gold with honours! SO got gold with honours, grats grats. (:

today after school, we went to the Jurong East sports hall to support our school badminton C'div. it was super hot in there.. no aircon no fan no nothing. but they played well and we won against nanyang! woohoo.

dont know what to blog about.. since i already said i dont know what i did. yea. byebye. (:

yay de! i love de. (:

our school got double champions in today's trampoline competition. whoo! and denise tied for individual 3rd. yay! so proud and happy for de!! i love de i love de. xD

we must do as well for choir in syf okay! jiayou for CHOIR. even though they say the standard very high and stuff, i know we can do it! strive for the best! we've been training so hard for that few minutes on stage. we have to SHOW what we are worthy of! gold with honours!

jiayi, whether you decide to change school or not, i'll respect your decision but i'll seriously miss you super much!! everything will be different without you... i'm really going to cry la, if you change school... but nevertheless, all the best in going for IP! jiayou. (:

we did practically nothing in school yesterday except for maths as teachers were either absent or had to go for syf. wanglaoshi bought the whole class packets of potato chips and chocos to thank us for moving the tables and having to clear our stuff so that dont know who can use. there was a receipt inside that 7 eleven plastic bag and it was like $45.50. hahha. spent so much money just on junk food! we were eating in class and poor alison was the only one who didn't eat. she say cannot eat in class.. =x wanted to leave some for her but she said she didn't feel like eating anyway. i love wanglaoshi. (:

OH AND HAPPY BDAY FATS. I LOVE YOU! and sorry, your bday present may be quite late!

many random thoughts are popping into my mind but i dont know what to type... so, yepp, end of post. hahaha. =P

ITS OVER LE. I"M SORRY.

happyb'day gonggong! (:

today was gong gong's bday, was going to kbox first before going to xin xian's hse. so after tuition, mum fetched me to the kbox at hougang mall... justin kor, lun kor, yin ying jie and fidia jie were there. jia yin jie came after awhile. justin kor and lun kor never really sing lo. it was great fun anyway! cousins' outing! whoo. (:

went to hougang mall for awhile then we went to xin xian's hse. quite a few ppl were there already, we went upstairs to play card games and stuff. me and jia yin jie kept talking non-stop la! we realised that we know a lot of the same people. hahaha. and one of them was CHAN YONG RONG. like =0!

then went to cut cake... got 2 cakes, 3 flavours. they are super nice, xiao yi make one. pro-ness la she. got blueberry cheesecake, oreo cheesecake and tiramisu ice cream cake. oooh the tiramisu rocked! yumm yumm... yepp. sang bday song and the little children blew the candles.

went back upstairs for awhile before going down for dinner. every year it's the same thing, a restaurant will like drive the van over and they will cook outside the house... then we eat. they set up the tents and the tables.. it's super ex la, i think it's like $400 per table and we had around 8 tables. sat beside jia yin jie and we talk talk talk again. whoo.

erm. well, these are the dishes in order... but i didn't take all as my phone ran out of batt halfway. =x longetivity bun. i forgot to take the pic until only two was left, haha. sorry! eh noodle with a lot of stuff in it. =P yum yum! erm this got siew mai, prawns [topped with mayo] [super nice], roast duck, and the two others i dont know what it is. eh my aunt says this is 'buddha jumping over the wall' or something. it's chicken soup with shark fin inside. super nice lo. the chicken so soft and tender...
suckling pig!! very fattening but yummy too. i was scraping off all the fat lo. ABALONE. i like i like! you know the thing below the bowl, is got fire one. then gong gong's table right, i think the fire came out and burned the cloth. someone poured beer over it and it became worse, but at the end managed to put it out with water, hahaha. FISH. yum yum too. SCALLOP! hahaha.

yepp, that's all the pics i've got. but during dinner the power tripped like 6 or 7 times lo. -.-. and i think i put on weight just by eating that meal!! hahaa. have to eat lesser for the next few days!

choir prac during recess tmr! =D

gashaus

this afternoon, met yiling and mrt-ed to bugis. we had to take the 825 bus to the mrt, then there's a closer bus stop at my house la, but that bus stop dont have shelter, so i wanted to walk to the further bus stop to take the bus. then yiling kept saying dont want, later the bus come then we miss it. but then at the end we started walking, then we walked halfway right, she suddenly pointed at a tree in front of us, SCREAMED and ran back. i thought there was something on the tree la, then she was like THE BUS!! so ji dong lo! i started laughing and my stomach so pain i couldn't walk. then we both managed to run back, and waving at the bus for it to stop. the kind bus driver stopped and waited for us. =D

we were going to jerald's band's gig at the Gashaus. we went to bugis junction first and shopped around.. i bought a pencil case from wallet shop! it says " Jesus is love " . yepp, then we came to this shop right. it sold super cute handphone holders, you know those you put on the table and you can cha1 your phone in.. then yiling was like, eh! i think i'm going to buy this for my children next time! the hole can put the baby's feet in, then the baby can walk. SO CUTE! hahaha. she so funny la, sec 1 think of buying things for her CHILDREN. -.-"

met jerald and his band plus his friends at bugis junction. then we went to the place. i was kind of freaked out when we got there. it's a bar, then super dark with music blasting so loudly you can feel the vibrations so strongly! there was smell of smoke everywhere, as many people were smoking. the people all wearing black make up and stuff like that.. tattoos, yada yada.

when we went there the band who was performing was quite gd, the drummer especially! he covered his whole face with black cloth, only revealing his eyes. his arms DAMN muscular la! so cool.

after that then it's another band then jerald's turn. that band was not very good, yiling and i went to grab a bite and were planning to come back when jerald's band was going to perform. we ate at long john silver's then we went back. jerald's band was super good! i show you the difference between the previous band and jerald's band ar.

see! that is the band before jerald's. notice the crowd. [none at all]

jerald's band!! look at the crowd! they were all so crazy la, they were like 'moshing'. so coooll. alvin looked super cool with the drums! jerald is the one wearing white jacket. whoo. they played PATD, fall out boy, the red drumsuit apparatus and blink 182's songs. the crowd kept trying to snatch his mike to sing, hahaha. me and yiling were standing at the steps watching. after that practically everyone wanted to shake jerald's hand, so funny. =P jerald sweat like seow! the face all wet.

well anyway i enjoyed it very much, went to ahma hse straight from there. =)

choiiirrrr.

this morning during assembly, the sec 3 classes performed dances/skits to commemorate International Friendship Day. some were quite interesting. (:

then the rest of the day was normal, yada yada. then went for choiiirrrr. hahs we went to the dance studio to sing so that we could get a bigger space. i put in my full attention okay! i didn't really talk. =P ms lim came around at about 5 15. she practiced with us for awhile only... because she say she very tired.

jiayi, jingyi, maria and i are going to CCAB [or smth] tmr for the NDP audition thingo. so nervous-ing la. well, the chances of getting in is almost zilch anyway, it's just going there for the experience. =D ms lim says if we dont get in she chop our heads off. hahah. well, just going to TRY my best.

12 days to syf!! go go goooo!!

JIAYI! bout wht happened in your class, some people just dont know how to appreciate wht you've done la, dont care them! you know you've tried your best and it's too bad for them that they dont appreciate it. (:

DEBBIE! i think i was a little crappy today. dui bu qiiii. i was just pissed because of very insignificant little stuff. i promise i'll be better tmr! and thank you for always being so understanding with my crappy moods. i love you! =D

oh yeah! here's a pic of me and debbie on the roof garden, see our shadows!! took that during recess, hahaha.

you and me ` this wonderful journey called LIFE. <3

13days LEFT till`syf

it suddenly dawned on me that there is only 13 more days till syf. 13 more days -> 780 hours -> 46800 mins -> 2808000 seconds. these seconds, they are already slipping past the moment i'm typing this and the moment you're reading this. But, there's no point counting down right... it's the quality of our practice, not the quantity!

blue badge choristers met up today to practice. 16 people came only, but nvm! this really shows who are the ones that are REALLY determined to get the gwh. [yay!] [but i'm not saying that the ppl who didn't come dont have the determination la] The ones that didn't come, i hope it was because you really couldn't. well it's okay, just try your best to come because it is really appreciated! haha, seeing us all come volunteerily is really encouraging! =D

we were all eating in class during PW today, Jordana gave all of us the "Kinder Surprise" chocolate egg thing, with a "happy easter" sticker on top. so sweet right! wanglaoshi didnt scold us though, i guess she couldn't be bothered. hah, she rocks. xD she let me go to the canteen to photocopy my art! hehe. and she let me and debbie go to the com lab even though she knew we were just going there to play. HAHA. we went there to look for dee jiayi and sharlyn bay. wanglaoshi is really nice!whoo. (: OH she let us off early too! it just makes things different if you have a nice form teacherrr.

today is monday, tmr got tingxie, weds got history test. not very packed la huh, and i was thinking, what's the point of looking forward to the weekends and after the weekends, monday will come AGAIN. so now, i'm just happy it's monday and tmr is tuesday and yesterday was sunday. HAH i'm going crazy. (:

CHOIR tomorrow. i will give my VERY BEST. no tiredness! yes. go choir! i love choir. (:

whoo!

last night, sleptover at shannen's hse. i practically moved my whole bed there. brought my bolster, pillow and blanket. just lacking the bed. hahaha. =P we watched "GOAL" [which was boring] and ate alot and alot and alot. pigs, yah i know. then we played cards, made prank calls. finally slept at around 3. hah. that's shannen.

woke up at 10! shannen kept screaming at me to wake up. so we both packed our stuff, ready to make our second trip to macritchie! so our plan for today: cycle to macritchie, have lunch, go amk library, go ntuc, go home bake muffins.

yepp. so.. it was like super super duper duper uber uber HOT. it seems so much more tiring to cycle in the sun lo. we stopped at many shops along the way, mostly pet shops, to look at the dogs. some were really cute, here are some pics:

shannen says this looks like a human, gives her goosebumps.

there's a bull dog right, he doesn't have the back two legs, so poor thing la. i dont think anyone will ever want to buy him.. imagine just lying there all day.

finally reached macritchie, and so we wanted to cycle the 11km lornie trail....

left bike shannen's, right bike mine.

despite the sign at the entrance of the trail

after only a short distance, it started RAINING. we were like superly disappointed and turned back, went to sit at the pavillion to wait for rain to stop, looking at everyone walking with their umbrellas. rain stopped, we went in again. finished it and then we took another path along the perimeter of the tree covered place. it's like wooden, and directly above the water. we kept saying sorry sorry sorry when we passed by ppl as it was quite squeezy and we were not supposed to cycle there in the first place. there was one woman [angmoh], she took off her sunglasses and shaked her head at us, we were pissed so we didnt say sorry. then another guy [also angmoh] when we said sorry, he was like, so polite! hahahah.

see, this shows how close it is to the water. could have dropped off! hahaha. there's a little bench on the path, we sat there for awhile, left my feet, right shannen's.

it was super fun la overall, shannen kept saying she felt like she was riding a horse because of the bumpiness of the ground. -.-" when we were about to leave, saw this guy who brought 4 little puppies. all only 1 and 1/2 month old. super cute! we chatted for awhile, and he told us that he has 4 female dogs and he brings them to the pet shop to mate with a male dog, so when the female dog gives birth, he gives one of the puppies to the pet shop and he sells the rest for $500 each.

after that went to pizza hut at thomson plaza for lunch. realised library was closed so we just decided to go home to bake cookies instead, since shannen got recipe. so we went home and made cookies, were quite chao ta but will edible la huh. okay, here are some pics i took at macritchie:

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there's not much time left till syf.. and i really hope that we do well. choir really means a lot to me and we've all worked so hard. i feel that i'm even more bonded with choir than my class. just a few more days. we have to jiayou!! cannot afford to drop now or waste any time. if we all work hard, sure can de!! go go go! i dont want to end up crying when the results are out!! unless it's because super happy la. WE CAN DO IT! haha, we the BOMB. (:

cycling whoo! (:

i like cyclingggg. whoo!!

YESTERDAY me and shannen wanted to go to amk market to drink bubble tea, so we cycled there and i got oreo choco, she didnt get anything. =x after that she said she wanted to go bird shop, so we cycled further down, near my sch there. we dilly dallied, shannen checked the price for changing her gear at the bike shop.


the birds at the bird shop, most of them, the feathers are cut so that they cannot fly. [it doesn't hurt, says shopkeer] but i still think that it's very can2 ren3 la! birds are meant to fly, they are not meant to be kept as hamsters or something, letting them run/hop around the floor. )): the birds were ranging from super small to super big. here's the picture of a super big parrot! hahaa. shannen said her mum asked the shopkeeper how much they bought for, and they said $40,000 !! that's like so ex la, dont know true or not. but the life span is like 70 years. shannen kept saying that if she gets it, she'll die before the bird does, tsk tsk.

yepp, then we went to the bird watching place.. quite a number of men [old] were sitting under a shelter, and looking at their birds that they hooked high up. then me and shannen were like, are they trying to trick their birds that they are flying, hahaha.

yepp.. went into this park place, we turn turn turn then came out right, we ended opposite amk library. yepp, so we cycled home from there. here's a picture of the park, prettaye right! (:

TODAY. shannen and i cycled to the bike shop to get her gears fixed, and to tighten some of my screws. [bike screws] and the destination was, MACRITCHIE. hahaha. i've never cycled so far before as there was always no one to go with me and due to the fang bian-ness of driving the car. so, i guess i found it very fun. and got a cheng2 jiu4 gan3 when we reached there! even though shannen led all the way. hahaha. standing by the water and blowing wind [chui feng] is really very shuang lo. wanted to stand there forever.. but we had to leave due to time constraints.

very bad pic, can't see anything but i was in a rush, sorry.

when we reached home, it was almost dark, we went there and back in 2 hours, hahaha. clap clap! feel so happy. and i 100% sure my muscles gonna ache tmr, cos i had to cycle up the slopes using the hardest gear on my bike because there's something wrong and if i change the gears, the whole chain will come out. haii, how am i going to go for morning jog tmr!! i dont want to make-up...

miss the times when it was like that everyday.. [referring to above pic] but times changed, we changed, difficult to see a time like this anymore.